Thursday, January 12, 2017

Taming the Monkey Mind...

If it were up to me, I’d eat pizza in it’s various forms every day.  Maybe today I’d have it in a “pocket” with an Italian sausage from the hotdog stand down the street.  Tomorrow I’d have it with pepperoni and spinach.  The day after that I’d go deep dish.  The point here is that left to my own devices I’m going to satisfy my monkey mind and go for immediate pleasure, waistline and arteries be damned!  That’s why I’ve spent the last 20 minutes googling and sending recipes to Laura.  As like most of you, we’ve started the new year with our own set of resolutions.  One of those is to eat like we give a damn about ourselves.  I feel like this is a lot easier for Laura, she’s already content eating salads, tofu, and other horrible, horrible things.  The only time she eats bad is when I talk her into it.  I actually sent recipes to turn cauliflower into some god forsaken version of chicken wings and another to use sweet potatoes as toast.  I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.  Here’s the catch, rational minded Jason knows that he feels way better when he eats like this, he knows that food shouldn’t be used for immediate gratification.  Rational minded Jason also knows that eating until he’s stuffed and uncomfortable shouldn’t be a life goal.  I talk about rational minded Jason in the third person because he also thinks cauliflower could possibly be a substitute for a chicken wing.  Sometimes rational Jason can be an asshole.  Anyway, on any given day I can come up with a million excuses as to why having that extra slice isn’t the worst thing in the world, or why getting those lemon cookies at Jewel is a treat that I deserve.  Immediate satisfaction is so easy!  Now to make this all work, I have given myself one day a week where I get to indulge.  I get to eat whatever I want, no regrets, no guilt.  When that day is done, I’m back to taking the long view.  That day is glorious.  That day also gives me stomach aches, but it’s so worth it.  Granted I’m not even two weeks into this new lifestyle.  See how I did that?  I’m not dieting or depriving myself of anything, I GET to eat all kinds of healthy food during the week.  Oh the things we do to trick ourselves…anyway, I’m not two weeks in and there’s frustration.  There’s frustration for anybody making any sort of substantial change.  The monkey mind likes things easy, back to that whole immediate gratification thing.  The good news is I hope I’m stronger than to give in to the temptations, and hopefully before long when somebody asks me how I’m doing, I won’t immediately respond with STARVING.  Anyway, don’t give in to whatever cheat, shortcut, or silliness your monkey mind is talking you into and  you too can enjoy cauliflower instead of chicken wings, just like me!

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