Monday, November 28, 2016

What I’m thinking about today…Frustration

I’m a computer geek by trade.  This writing thing is new to me.  Everything I’m reading about writing is to write a lot.  They say to write every day.  I’ve got too much going on to make that a reality, but here I am writing.  Today the thought on my mind is frustration.  I’m going to write about frustration.  It’s funny because over the long weekend I had been thinking a lot about gratitude, I thought I’d write about that now.  Instead I’m going in pretty much the opposite direction.  There’s a lot of frustration today.  It all seemed to start last night when I started thinking about work again.  I knew it was looming, I knew today would be hectic, as most days are lately, and I started to get that pit in my stomach.  The same pit I’d get when I was younger in school after Christmas vacation or an especially great weekend, and I didn’t want the real world to start again Monday morning.  That feeling carried over to this morning.  I guess you can say I didn’t start the week off in an especially great frame of mind.
Monday started whether I wanted it to or not.  The meetings started, the messages started coming in, the requests for everybody’s urgent matters started pouring in, and within an hour I had forgotten that I even had any time off at all.  It got to the point where I jumped from issue to issue all day and never really got anything accomplished.  Hence the frustration.  The good news is, I’m two paragraphs in on something to write about.  That’s worth something right?
I know what the answer here is.  It’s all stuff we’ve talked about before.  Take little pieces.  You can’t solve everything at once.  Struggle and get better.  Blah, Blah, Blah…  A lot of times in the middle of it, those are very hard things to do.  You end up freezing up and making the problem worse with a particularly unproductive day.  Just like at the end of good days, all you can do is walk away and hope to do great things tomorrow right?  In a sense, this is a lot like weight loss, you’ve got good days, and you’ve got bad days.  Whatever kind of day you’ve had, you can’t let it affect the next.  You need to show up and do what you need to do.  There’s a guy, a quite impressive guy, that’s I’ve started following lately named Jocko Willink.  I’ve heard him say it’s “discipline, not inspiration” that’ll help you get where you want to be.  Well today was definitely not a red letter day in either of those categories.  Here’s to working to make sure tomorrow is different…

Thanks for humoring me with the venting… 

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